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“No sacrifice, no glory” a phrase I’ve heard countless times. Today it came hard into play and I have a new found respect for it. Let me just break down the story.

A couple of weeks ago there was a script that went into pre-production and I had gotten word about it. A portion of people on board for the project are ones I had worked with previously. Let’s call the story “Bunson”. So when I was slashing through scripts as I sometimes do, I come across an un-produced script called Bunson. After reading it several times and making my minor corrections to it, I had visually watched this story come to life in my head. I relayed the story to some people and it was one that didn’t really catch anyone else’s attention.

Time goes by and I catch wind that this magical script I loved is going into production, Bunson was going to be made!!!. NOW the entire crew was set to launch but what do you know, the directors and producers have a little problem with working together so the directors get the boot. This is what I heard, so me happy as ever the dream position opens up I get giggles and immediately begged for a chance to be a 2nd or 3rd AD. The passing around of my name and me waiting had me all anxious but deep inside I was confident I’d at least have the shot to impress producers with my storyboards and shot lists.

This is where depending on others gets a little rough and matters must be taken into my own hands. For the past two weeks I’ve been hearing from other sources that the start date had been pushed back and I was going to get an answer and a chance to be on this set. In my mind I was set on being a credited director for this film and nothing else.

So today 2/16 the opening comes-a-knockin. I was well prepared to take this position knowing that other candidates had better qualifications than I, but I was like “Fcuk em i’m goin for it gotdammit” and so I did. Skipping forward about an hour, I began to understand that I wasn’t going to be picked for this part. My ambition and confidence still landed me a role on the set BUT it was for a position I didn’t want. I respectively said “this isn’t what I signed up for and thank you for the opportunity” and ended it right there. It was a no go for me to be a part of Bunson but I felt so much better knowing exactly what I was going for and being mature enough to just walk away from it. Some may say it was my stubbornness that came into play and it could probably be called for. I’d rather sacrifice not being on the set instead of being tortured for the three weeks of shooting while someone is the cool AD.

In the end of it, it’s nothing that’s gonna stop the day from going on and for other projects. Maybe another Bunson will come up or DUHHH I could write my own Bunson. When I was waiting to hear about the details on Bunson I have to admit I was in that “negative town” state where it was all I could think about and in that mind set I was mean to a few people who were only trying to get me out of my funk and I’d like to apologize to all of them bastids.

ANYWAY, I do feel a lot better now and will continue on with LIIIIFE in a much more relaxed manor.

K BYEEEEEEEE